I'm in Love

no it's not with some new chocolate dessert or a movie or song. and no I'm not pulling a Dibsy where you scroll down and I say I'm kidding. Nope. It's true. I'm in love with a man and here's what happened.

My online crush (no nothing to do with my latest poll, cause I know what he looks like lol) is Moonwolf (blogger name). We've known each other geez idk months and months and usually talk almost daily (on gaia he's Drake Shot). AND before Sonic says it, he's been on gaia for years before I was. There's never been anything romantical between us.

Well this weekend we had a huge row and I was close to losing him as a friend. So was I the usual cool, calm and collected Cruz? Nope. I freaked the muff out! Like seriously! crying in rl, calling my friends, gmailing my bff (Girl who could fly) even poor Alter got a huge freaked out rant IN SPANISH of all things ... yeah I was a mess. So the fact that I was freakin out just freaked me out even more! O.o yesh I ish complicated.

I didn't like the effect he had on me, so I decided okay maybe we should just end this friendship, and that'll be end of that. And then came the pain. OH. MY. GAWD. the pain that came with the mere idea of never talking to him again. So light bulb moment right? I love him. Oh crap. why the hell did I fall for one of my best friends? and plus! he has a girlfriend! geez.

I've been on a rollercoaster of emotions all weekend let me tell you >.< color="#006600">I'll post more or something funny later when I have more time, just big news! so I did a quick post... kinda like when I got my tattoo lol =p anyway Storm! Balmung! Neko-chan! go see my pic on the previous post cause I'm gonna take it down once you guys seen it. ^^

Hot Dog! (plus: limited time offer a pic of me:expired lol)

OREO RESULTS

Levi's Answer: 1.One bite at a time. You are lucky to be one of the 5.4 billion other people who eat their Oreos this very same way. Just like them, you lack imagination, but that's okay, not to worry, you're normal sooooo NOT TRUE -.-

Cory's Answer:10. I don't like Oreo cookies. You probably come from a rich family, and like to wear nice things, and go to up-scale restaurants. You are particular and fussy about the things you buy, own, and wear. Things have to be just right. You like to be pampered. You are a prima donna. There's just no pleasing you. NOT true

Nixx's and My Answer: 6.Twisted apart, the inside, and then the cookie. You have a highly curious nature. You take pleasure in breaking things apart to find out how they work, though not always able to put them back together, so you destroy all the evidence of your activities. You deny your involvement when things go wrong. You are a compulsive liar and exhibit deviant, if not criminal, behavior. might be true >.<

White Forest: there was no answer that matched with peanut butter O.o

other answers:

1.The whole thing. This means you consume life with abandon, you are fun to be with, exciting, carefree with some hint of recklessness. You are totally irresponsible. No one should trust you with their children.

3. Slow and Methodical. You follow the rules. You're very tidy and orderly. You're very meticulous in every detail with everything you do to the point of being anal retentive and irritating to others. Stay out of the fast lane if you're only going to go the speed limit.

4. Feverous Nibbles. Your boss likes you because you get your work done quickly. You always have a million things to do and never enough time to do them. Mental breakdowns and suicides run in your family. Valium and Ritalin would do you good.

5. Dunked. Every one likes you because you are always upbeat. You like to sugarcoat unpleasant experiences and rationalize bad situations into good ones. You are in total denial about the shambles you call a life. You have a propensity towards narcotic

7. Twisted apart, the inside, and then toss the cookie. You are good at business and take risk that pay off. You take what you want and throw the rest away. You are greedy, selfish, mean, and lack feelings for others. You should be ashamed of yourself. But that's ok, you don't care, you got yours.

8. Just the cookie, not the inside. You enjoy pain.

9. I just like to lick them, not eat them. Stay away from small furry animals and seek professional medical help - immediately

btw I didn't number them wrong, I put the other numbered ones at the top with the results >.< lol ="p">

okay so what's new with me... not much, I finally worked out the guy drama stuff and decided to stay single a while, don't know how long that'll last considering I get lonely easily. LOL oh well *shrugs* anything new with you guys? anything exciting? adventurous? anything at all?

I NEED the following items: Book: MR5, CD: Metamorphosis, Food: Brownies >.<

kk what else... ummm dunno.... I'm kinda in a very confused and rebellious mood, mostly cause of my dad but whatever. A select few people already seen me because I have a private chatbox but for the rest of you. I figured what the hell.... I might take it down if I get paranoid lol >.<

CoOkIeS

Responses to Comments ^^

White Forrest: OMG! that's so funny your guy from Texas (don't judge us Texans on this lol) but yeah there are some weirdos out there, guys on Gaia sometimes just walk up to your little avatar and start humping you. I don't know whether to laugh or yell at them, so I just run away lol XD

SONIC!!! hi ^^ no one is being attacked by coconuts, Girl who could fly just has issues with all tropical fruit, and plus she's "slightly" insane, and oddly enough, one of my best friends XP lol

InsaneKlutz: don't be embarassed, but YES! be random, we love randomocity at this blog ;)

Nixx: now I will forever be known as Chizzle El Grande! lol and wow kitteh conspiracy theory, interesting... hmmm... very possible as well

Levi: thankies ^^ I thought they were funny

Gandalf: too much feelings huh? *runs and tackle-hugglfies Gandalf* ROFL!!! come on people! Gandalf needs love! GROUP HUGGLZ! lol XD

Dibsy: aww boy trouble too? I think it might hurt more if you're younger because everything is new, kinda the first cut hurts the deepest kinda thing (altho no cutting involoved it's a metaphor.. or is it? I'm horrible at English, you people know that XP) and I'll e-mail if you want to know but it's no big deal lol

AURORA!!!! *super-hugglz back* OMG! it feels like it's been freakin forever girl, I think cause I've been posting less -.- but thx for sneaking on and OF COURSE no one here will tell you were on >.<

Girl: I honestly don't know how to respond to all that comment(s) lol *speechless* lol

Claire: OMG! I love my blog too! rofl... welcome ^^

Relationships are too complicated, so I found a site that will calculate your love match in a percentage HERE hmm I got 32% with my current bf -.-

I also found another test, this one asks a deep thought provoking question.... how do you eat your oreo cookies? I want everyone to answer and then the next post I'll post what your answer means ^^ choose one

1. The whole thing all at once

2. One bite at a time

3. Slow and methodical nibbles, examining the results of each bite afterwards

4. In little feverous nibbles

5. Dunked in some liquid (milk, coffee...)

6. Twisted apart, the inside, then the cookie

7. Twisted apart, the inside, and toss the cookie

8. Just the cookie, not the inside

9. I just like to lick them, not eat them

10.I don't have a favorite way because I don't like Oreos

POLLS!!! OMG! look at the poll results so far... 88% of people (16) so far think you can fall in love without ever seeing the other person... awwww hopeless romantics! XP that is kinda sweet tho, I put that poll up, NOT FOR ME, just so you know I've still never been in love -.- but for others I know on Gaia and blogger that are dating and are in love, so I was curious what everyone else thought. And it seems we have quite an age range with followers but like 70% are 14-17 cool to know.

And now some St. Patty's Day pics for my mear amusement! da doggie is gween O.O!!!

what's up?

nm here and once again I'm at a loss on what to post, so random stuff put together....

I have drama, with what else? boys! I think I'm having romantic feelings for a guy friend that I really shouldn't, and online guy friend at that, please don't tell my bf >.<>

This is just a convo between me and Alter Cosmos( his name is Dycera on Gaia)...

Me: been good *smile* hows are u doin these days?

Dycera: Being accused by Tyu of being a Liberalist and that I'm wrong for doing what i do, that i seek to be the most powerful and smartest member of the flock. Nothing new.

Me: well well nothin new O.o lol... but you know what you can't really be held responsible for your intelligence that's something you're born with, and as far as power goes, people who have power only have it because others give it to them... so in reality, that theory is shot to hell because you can't help being smart and powerful >.<>

Dycera: True enough, I find that counteracting ignorance with logic only adds to the ignorance being developed so there is no use in trying.

Me: *reads your comment* hmmm *RE-reads your comment* huh? *RE-RE-reads your comment* oh noez! *head goes boom* now see what you did? XP

Dycera: Lol, Ooooops Sorry about that. *police sirens in the background* Oh noez..... they're coming to take me away!!!!!!!!!!!! XD

Me: well they sure as hell better!! I just had my hair done too! >.<>

Dycera: O.o, No No Noooooooooo *hands me coffee and gives me fuzzy slippers* Thanks officer *hands me a certificate of head explosion, I smile and take my picture with the cops, then they leave* That was amazing.

Me: YOU SUCK!!! rofl

I have no idea how I went from supportive friend to pissed at him O.o LOL but I thought it was a funny convo so I posted it and now funny animal pics XD!!

Em ye^u anh

OMG I was looking at the Vietnamese way to say I love you which is the title (on Dibsy's last comment) and I saw next to it Vulcan O.o seeeeee GANDALF! Vulcan's CAN love! lol

Okay Dibsy I'm taking the test >.<

1.You are walking in the woods. Who are you walking with? Aria (for those who don't remember... my fave sis... yes my ONLY sis)

2.You are walking in the woods. You see an animal. What kind ofanimal is it? Elephant (wait! were in the woods not the jungle w/e)

3. What interaction takes place between you and the animal? he's talking to me trying to convince me that I'm crazy for not liking peanuts!

4.You walk deeper in to the woods. You enter a clearing and before you is your dream house. Describe it’s size. size? ummm big idk >.>

5.Is your dream house surrounded by a fence? no I don't do the whole white picket fence fantasy

6.You enter the house. You walk to the dining area and see the dining table. Describe what you see on and around the table. A bucket of KFC!

7.You exit the house through the back door. Lying in the grass is a cup. What material is the cup made of? plastic, I don't do dishes

8.What do you do with the cup? drink from it O.o what else do you do with a cup? noooooooo nevermind don't need you guys getting creative! lol remember that episode of friends when Phoebe was in charge of cups and ice for the bday party? yeah good show lol... what was I doing? riiiiggghhhttt posting lol sorry next question

9. You walk to the edge of the property. Where you find yourself standing at the edge of a body of water. What type of body of water is it? the ocean, I love the beach

10.How will you cross the water? swim lol I could swim across the ocean all this is hypothetical anyway

11. Now pick a number between 1-5.The whole purpose of this test was to find yourself and who you really are… 1

okay so in summary... My sister's the most important person in my life (no surprise there lol) and the durability of our relationship is plastic, hmm is that good or bad? I don't get #8 at all someone smarticle please explain ! I have big problems? ok I do but they're rare plus I'm well medicated for them >.<>I have an open-personality. um ok. Food on someone's dining table means they're generally happy, so true, until the food runs out NO! lol. Apparently ACCORDING TO THIS TEST I have a large sexual desire that happens to be very important to me NO COMMENT! lol and I'm not passing it on Dibsy unlike you I'm not scared of chain letters lol^^ but that was interesting and cured my boredom for a while YAY! oh and Dibsy WHY? OH WHY? EVERY TIME I DO ONE OF YOUR TESTY THINGIES IT CALLS ME A PERVERT! lol

OK here's a name one for you Dibsy or anyone else, I got it from this guild on gaia, mine didn't have very funny names but maybe it'll work for you

1.WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (mothers and fathers middle names) Marie Dean- like the sausage? mmmm sausage... the timeless controversary of links versus patties lol

2.NASCAR NAME: (first name of your mother's dad, father's dad) Darryl Henry- boring:(

3..STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name) Marel- I was expecting worse XP

5.DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color, favorite animal) Pink Panda- cute! but actually I couldn't decide the animal so I just picked one that I was thinking of today >.<

6.SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, town where you were born) Lynne Harlingen- eh

7.SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd fav color, fav drink, add "THE" to the beginning) The Black Coke- I don't even want to guess superpowers on that name

8.FLY NAME: (first 2 letters of 1st name, last 2 letters of your last name) Elez- O.O looks like el lez >.> ahhhhhhhh I'm straight lol

9.STREET NAME: (fav ice cream flavor, fav cookie) Sherbert Sugar- maybe it's a street in candyland THAT WOULD ROCK!!

10. PORN NAME: (1st pet's name, street you grew up on) Babie Alabama- cute but I'm from Texas lol

11.YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (first 3 letters of last name plus izzle) Marizzle- actually I used my dads last name O.o don't want stalkers to be able to track meh down lol

12.YOUR IRAQI.. NAME: (2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, first two letters of your last name) Lrma um ok >.>

13.YOUR GOTH NAME: (black, and the name of one of your pets) Black Potato- hmmm taters aren't very gothic lol

14. STRIPPER NAME: (name of your fav perfume/cologne, fav candy) Pleasures Symphony- I expected something more provocative :(

FUN GOOGLE SEARCHES!!!! O.O I gtg but I'll try to visit some people's blogs this afternnon... love you guys!!! and I have no idea what the prize is for the contest last tread, I didn't even know you guys were competing lol *hugglz all around*

In case you can't see this one it says search "Gay" and the did you mean is Jonas Brothers lol

Here's what the questions at the top mean.....

1.The person you are walking with is the most important person in your life.

2.The size of the animal represents the size of your problems.

3.The interaction you have with the animal represents how you deal with your problems. (passive/aggressive)

4.The size of your dream house is the size of your ambition to resolve your problems.

5.No fence indicates an open personality,and a fence indicates a closed personality.

6.If your answer did not include food, people or flowers then you are generally unhappy.

7.The durability of the material the cup is made of is the durability of your relationship with the person in question 1.

8.Your disposition of the cup represents your attitude towards the person in question 1.

9.The size of the body of water represents the size of your sexual desire.

10.How wet you get crossing the water is the importance of your sex life.

11.The number you picked is how many hours you have to send this to at least 1 person.